I graduated with my masters degree back in May, had a job in place, and lost it just as quickly as it took me to cross the stage. The thing with social work and non-profit is that you can be the best employee ever, but funding is the ultimate boss, not the people that invest hours of their life into it. Additionally, my boyfriend and I moved in together and my room mate/best friend of five years is moving across country to start fresh in Los Angeles. I am happy for her but yet envious at the same time. I have been wanting to pick up and leave Orlando and find a new place of my own. I wanted my own fresh start.
This weekend, my other two close friends and past room mates came to my new apartment to bid farewell to our old friend and spend some time with her before the big move. The picture below was taken last night at a local bar and it will probably be the last picture taken of all of us for a long while.
In addition to spending quality time with good friends, I finally realized that I have been too hard on myself. The truth is, whether we re-locate or stay in the same place, we pick our adventures, our fresh starts and new beginnings. I can mope around and be depressed that I am unemployed and life is no longer the same as it was for the last five years of my life but maybe that's life giving me my fresh start.
Tomorrow starts a new week and I am going to take on the full time job of finding a job. I am going to exercise tomorrow and the next day and the next so I can find my old self again. I will also have to say the hardest "see you later" to the person that used to just be across the hall, to now being across the country.
I am going to say good bye to these tears and hello to my next adventure.
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| K.Clark on the far right, D.D, Myself, Christina, and Wa-wa |
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